In Loving Memory of the veterens:In Flanders Field

In flanders field,
The poppies Blow,
Between the crosses,
Row on row

We are the dead,
Short days ago,
We lived, we felt dawn,saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved,and now we lie,
In flanders field


Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw,
The torch; be yours to hold it high,
If ye break faith with us who die
we shall not sleep, though poppies grow,
In flanderds field

- John McCrae

Random things {Cant think of a title}

Tomorrow is Halloween, I am exited to go trick-or-treating... I have not yet got my costume and i am planning to get it tonight.. I also cant wait until tomorrow before halloween night, in school, because usually on halloween, we dont have to work and we just play games and stuff all day, so that will be fun :) But I am confused because I want to go trick-or-treating with my friend, Natasha, but i also want to see Cameron trick-or-treat because it will be so cute.. I would bring her with me, but my mom is going to Candiac to trick-or-treat, but Natasha is not allowed to go that far.. so i have a desicion to make :-/ Oh well, I think I will go with my friend because i can see Cameron trick-or-treat next year :)

Anyways, Right now, im not in the best mood, Cameron has been bugging me constantly since i got home, He has been screaming, and hitting the poor dog for no reason.. Mauling her and just being mean. The poor dog is scared of cameron, and she shakes everytime he comes around, I dont understand how cameron can be so mean... I know hes a kid and doesnt understand, but even when i tell him not to hurt the dog, he still does it! Its unbeleivable.

Anyways, so i just finished reading the book Miranda gave me called "The perks of being a wallflower" It is a really good book and i loved it. Here is the summary of it: This is the story of what its like to grow up in high school. More intimate than a diary, Charlie's letters are singular and unique, hilarious and devastating. We may not know to whom he is writing, All we know is the world he shares. Caught between trying to live his life and trying to run from it puts him on a strange course through uncharted territory. The world of first dates and mixed tapes, family dramas and new friends. The world of sex, drugs, and the Rocky horror pictures show, when all one requires is that perfect song on that perfect drive to feel infinte.--

Doesnt it sound awesome? well even if it doesnt, I would recomend this book, it is very good.. I dont know, maybe i like it because i love to read, and also in the book, 'Charlie' is a writer, and loves to write and read. I guess the book just interested me. I hadnt started reading it until 2 nights ago, i read the first 4 pages, i loved it but it was late and i was tired, so i stopped reading it. Then i read the rest today, i cant believe how fast i read it, i mean i know it is a pretty short book compared to the other books im us to, but still, i think i read it pretty fast.

So anyways, I think i will go to chapters tonight and buy a new book, a long book with alot of pages so it will last me a while. I will be able to get it tonight because im getting 20$ for watching Cameron, Speaking of cameron, you know how i mentioned earlier that he was mauling the dog? Well now the dog is provoking it,she keeps taking everything she can find and chewing it, mostly all of cameron's toys. anyways, im off, because cameron is into my make-up so i offered to do it for him :) hehe (smiles evily) lol

Stressed

My life right now seems hectic, nothing seems normal anymore... not that it actually is anyways, But through-out my life, whenever my mom is feeling her beer, she tells the truth, she says exactly what's on her mind and what she is going to do. So last night, She was telling me how i was starting to get an attitude and that i was starting to be like my older brother Corey, I know for a fact that I am most definatly moody,which is normal for a teenager, but i will admit i am more then moody most times, but i hate it because my mother just assumes that i am like corey, assumes that i am somehow a bad person, when im not.. How would she know? She never took the time to ask me what might be bothering me, or what is on my mind, no, never.. See, thats the problem between my mom and I, we just cant communicate, we can't talk about anything.

I recall my cousin AND my mom telling me how much less moody i had been when i was with David, and even i noticed it.. I was. Which is why i can;t understand that my mom doesnt think i have a reason to be moody, or not even moody, more ... upset which makes me edgy. I am not too soon going to get over David, probably not for a while either, but sooner or later, i should lighten up a bit, but until my mom can actually sit down and ask me whats wrong, I cant' just forgive her for saying the things she said. I have tried to sit down and talk with her many times, but on those occasions, she simply just brushes me off.. The only time she takes the time to talk with anyone, really, is when she is completely drunk, but then there isnt really that much of a point in talking to her about anything then there is there? Considering she wouldnt remember anything the next day.

So anyways, She was telling me that i would have to go live with my dad, and she would leave with my cousin and my brother so she had time to "figure" things out. All i really want is for her to talk with me, without being drunk, without being in a bad mood. Because of the problem of zero communication, I have trouble wanting to sit down and talk with her now, i have always wanted to, but now that she pushes me away, and tells me the things she does.. I dont know anymore if i do. It bugs me to have to come home after school, i woul rather go to a friends house.. well not even a friends house, just a place where i could escape all of it.. Maybe a library to read.. if only there were a world with unlimited money, or n othing cost money and everything stayed open 24/7, and i had a book that lasted forever, i would be in PARADISE.

I talk to my friends about most of my problems, but their advice doesnt always help. But i know two people who are always here for me, and they give great advice, and i feel like i can trust them with everything i say, and i love them to death... Francis and Miranda are the best people i know, I love doing things with them, and going places with them, and im so happy that they are in my life, Whenever i am with them, my problems never come to my mind, I wish i could just stay with them. But of course, I couldnt, because my mom would never let me :( Anyways, i am off :)

Fun Facts

1)Marilyn Monroe had 6 toes instead of 5 on one foot!

2)Cockroaches can live for 9 days after their head has been cut off.

3)A car traveling 100 mph would take more than 29 million years to reach the nearest star.

4)In Cleveland, Ohio it is illegal to catch mice without a hunting license.

5)Ants never sleep.

6)The human brain is 80% water.

7)A goldfish has a memory span of about 3 seconds.

8)The earth is approx. 6,588,000,000,000,000,000 tons.

9)Ernest Vincent Wright wrote a novel with over 50,000 words, none of which containing the letter "E".

10)Tourists visiting Iceland should know that tipping at a restaurant is considered an insult.

11)Donald Duck comics were banned from Finland because he doesn't wear pants.

12)Every day more money is printed forMonopoly than the US Treasury

13)Every year, kids in North America spend close to half a billion dollars on chewing gum.

14)The man who played the voice of bugs bunny was allergic to carrots.

15)Every time you lick a stamp you gain 1/10 of a calorie.

16)Spotted skunks do handstands before they spray.

17)Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.

18)Other than fruit, honey is the only natural food that is made without destroying any kind of life.

19)The average chocolate bar has 8 insect legs in it.

20)Richard Versalle, a tenor performing at New York's Metropolitan Opera House, suffered a heart attack and fell 10 feet from a ladder to the stage just after singing the line "You can only live so long."

Time

Time, Time is something you sometimes want to go faster, but sometimes you wish it would just stop. Like me, Alot of the time i want time to just pass by, to go so much faster, but of course it doesnt. But lately, i just want it to stop, completley come to a stop. Because i have been taking the time latley to stop and think, What do i actually want to do with my future? Of course, that was in the future, and the future was pretty far away. But i have been thinking, Do I really want to grow up? I will be walking somewhere one day and see an elderly person sitting on a bench and i think to myself, That will be me one day... It is kind of scary, Because it just freaks me out at how fast I have become what I am, I am 13, and I just cant remember what it was like to be 3.. to have no responsibilities what so ever, to not have to think about the future and just have fun playing house... And now i think about the responsibilites i have now, and how much more i will have 7 years from now. I look at my little brother and i wish i could go back to how his life is. I remember when I use to live in a world of fairy tales, where you never had to worry about anything, and you could just play games all day. You could enjoy summer days without the stress of going back to school on your mind, and you could enjoy winter days without thinking about the test on monday coming up. Yep, time is a scary thing, because theres no end to it, no limit, it just goes on forever. Somewhere on the line of time you are born, and then somewhere else on that line, you die. And anywhere in between you do the things you do, but compared to the line of time, your lifespan is only about an inch long.. That is what freakes me out about time. Its like time has left me behind standing here not even knowing what will become of me 10 years from now. But i guess thats part of growing up. So anyways, im off. byeee

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday I went with Francis and Miranda all day until about 4:30. Francis picked me up at 8:45 about and then we went to go and get Miranda on the west-island from her mom's house. Aafter getting her, her mom drove us to the U-haul place to get a truck, and the line-up was HUGE!! we waited like a half hour if not more in line. When we got the truck, we drove to Miranda's aunts house and picked up some of their furniture and packed it into the truck, when we were there Miranda's aunt gave me a beautiful bracelet! I love it. and after packing the stuff into the truck, we went to Miranda's friends house and we picked up her friends stuff. After that, we went back to Miranda's and put some more stuff in the truck, and then we went to Miranda's other aunts house and we talked to her for a while :) Then after talking, we went back to Miranda's house and her mom made sheppards pie for us.. Her whole family is really nice! And then after eating, Francis drove me back home. Wwhen i got home, I called Tara to see if she could come over and she said she was just gonna eat first, so about an hour and a half later she was here and we watched an anime called Vampire Knight, and then i put on Inuyasha(again) lol, and after the movie, she had to leave. So when she left i fell asleep. Today is a ped-day. and so far,i didnt do much yet, its only 1:00PM and i woke up at 10:30, I watched tv until now :) So thats it for now. Byeee

Cutest Pictures/icons Ever! :)

These are just some pictures i find cute :) The tiger and the kitty are my favourite, and the baby!! xD hehe
<3

Today...

Today i woke up at 10:30 because i was awake until 1:30, and i woke up again at 2:30 and found that the power was out everywhere around here and it was pitch black! But it went back on not long after.. So anyways, in the morning i felt sick for so long, it was horrible. So when i wasnt sick anymore, i sat down and watched Inuyasha(even though i've seen all of them a million times) for a while, but then Jamie called and asked if i wanted to go to the movies. I said yes :P So at 3 we went to the movies, we saw Quarentine.. I already saw that but jamie wanted to see it so i decided to goo see it. After the movies, Jamies mom wasnt able to pick us up for a half hour, and it was 5, so I figured i had time(because i was going to go to supper with Francis and Miranda at 6:30 or 7) Anyways, so we went tothe halloween store, then we went to the dollar store but it was closed, so we walked to Tim Hortons and waited for her mom there. Then we found out her mom couldnt come get us because Chris had the car and her mom couldnt get ahold of him, so at around 6:15 i called my mom (Mistakenly on Jamies phone) and there was no answer, so i wasnt thinking because my mom didnt want anyone to know her new number and since i dialed it on her phone it was now saved to it. So finally her mom picked us up, and when i got home, my mom was SUPER mad at me because i called from jamies phone, so i wasnt allowed to go with Miranda and Francis anymore, and i felt terrible because they drove all the way from the west-island to pick me up, and then my mom just changes her mind!! :( But then finally after my mom wasnt in such a bad mood, i was able to go with them :D I had soo much fun with them, we went to tim hortons and we talked, and wrote lists for tomorrow, and thenn we went to georgettes and brought everything down to the car. And then they drove me home. Its 12:00 now, so i should go to bed because i have to be up by at least 8 because francis is picking me up at 8:30 AM so i cant sleep in!!! Okay, NIIGHTT!!! :)

Random

Today, I slept in until like 11, and it would have been longer but my mom woke me up. So i stayed in most of the day, and left at onloy 7:00 PM to go see a movie, but when we got there, The movie we wanted to go see wasnt playing any later then 5, so instead, we left the movies and walked down tashreau BLVD.. First we went into the Halloween store and looked at costumes, then after that we went into this furniture store and acted like idiots.. we sat down in this gruop of chairs that looked like an audience type way of setting, and we started clapping and cheering.. then aaafter leaving that store, we went into the dollar store and bought some chocolate and candy and ate it walking down tashreau, then we walked into the wine store SAQ, but not all the way in, just a little past the entrance and then we said, OH NO, THIS ISNT PHARMAPRIX! and walked out.. then we went into a couple of other stores doing the same thing,.. it was hilarious, then we went and ate at la belle province next to scottyz, then Jamies mom came and picked us up. When we got home, i went to my house and jamie and Maeghan went to Jamies house, when i walked in Georgette was here! Then i asked my mom if I could go back outside to see jamie and maehgan, she said yes so i ran to her house.. after being outside for a while and jumping in leaves, we took out Jamies cell and we did a couple of funny "scary" videos, that were suppose to be scary, but we couldnt stop laughing doing them so they turned out retarded! But it was so much fun!! So that was my day :)

Finally!

So tonight was the dance at chambly, it was SO fun! I finally danced at a dance, i have never danced at a dance before... I only danced with my friends though, me and my friend lilly requested like a million songs, like low,Lollipop,the cha cha slide and alot more!! I loved the danc, i so badly wanted to ask a guy a like to dance but i never had the guts, and so that would be the only thing i regret tonight.. is that i didnt ask him... I should always ask myself, whats the worst that could happen? So then it might be a little easier to ask him next dance.. I should make myself a promise to ask him to dance next time.. hehe, i shall! lol okay well im off to bed, im VERY tired and I will fall asleep typing if i dont sleep, lol Goodnight, xoxo byee

Concrete angel by Martina Mcbride (best song ever!)

She walks to school with a lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holding back; Wearing the same dress she wore yesterday, She hides the bruises with the linen and lace;

oh The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask, It's hard to see the pain behind the mask; Bearing the burdon of a secret storm, Sometimes she wishes she was never born;

Through the wind and the rain, She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above; But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.

Concrete Angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night, The neighbors hear but they turn out the lights; A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate, When morning comes it will be too late. Through the wind and the rain, She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above;

But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved. Concrete Angel A statue stands in a shaded place, An angel girl with an upturned face; Her name is written on a polished rock, A broken heart that the world forgot. Through the wind and the rain, She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above; But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.

Concrete Angel

Pictures

On the top left is my best friend Jamie, Next to that is my mom, Next to her is My cousin Shelbie, and the last one is of my little brother cameron. :P

Dance :)

This Thursday is the school dance! I cant wait, I still need to get a costume though, otherwise i cant go because it is a halloween dance . I am going with my friends :) Two days left until the dance, I really need to get a costume!!!!! as soon as my mom gets home I will ask if we can go get one at the Halloween store, i love the costumes there, their pretty cool :P

A story I wrote for english class, suppose to be about being trapped on an island :P

Journal day 1;


Today, I arrived at this island, and all I have is my clothes, and some tools. And only so
much supply of food, I am angry at my sister, I am angry at my dad, my sister’s friends,
and my sister too. I am mad at the world. Everything had to be against me, nobody wants
to know why I am angry, or why I did what I did. As soon as I arrived here, I did nothing
but sit in one spot, for god knows how long, just thinking about my actions and my
worthless self. I didn’t understand reality; I had been born into a world of tragedy and
death, and had learned from it. I looked up to it. A thought of hurt exited me. You would
Think I would hate it because I could have lost one of the people I love to it. But no doubt
About it, pain made me happy, and when I seen it happen, it fed me, made me hungrier
For more and more. That was the reason I always beat people up. I’ve done it so much it
Became more of a habit then a hobby, now, well now it was a curse, now it haunted me,
And affected me. My life was taken over by violence. Oh, who am I kidding, It was only
Me and me only who could effect the way I do things. I wish I could go back in time,
Back to when I was only 4 and change the way I turned out, make sure I never hurt
Anyone.

Late

Today, I woke up later then expected.. I missed my bus and and i couldn't find any clothes to wear! So after like a half hour of looking for clothes, I finally found something to wear, my mom is dropping some people of places and then she is coming back to drive me to school. I hate being late, its embarrassing for me so much!!!! I dont know why though. Anyways, if i hadn't found the pants im wearing, i would have had to wear a skirt with running shoes! So that would look kind of crazy :S Im just waiting for my mom to get back, i would MUCH rather go in at lunch, that way people are scattered everywhere and i dont have to walk in to a totally quiet room, you know? Much easier. But my mom insists that i go in as soon as she comes back and drops me off, ugghh, this will be so embarrassing! So im off... Byee

Inuyasha

I LOVE THIS PICTURE! its from Inuyasha and the girl is Kagome and the guy is Inuyasha, I think they make, the most perfect couple on any anime, i LOVE the show, and yes i think i am obsessed, hehe :)

Last weekend and this

Last weekend was a rough weekend for me, My bf broke up with me the day before thanksgiving, and it was horrible. I cried on and off all day and then i texted Miranda and asked her if i could spend thanksgiving with her and Francis, and i was able too. I was so happy that i was able to because they are the most awesome people i know. I felt so much better when i was with them, i never once thought about David! Anyways, so that day we drove out to the brick, and we looked at a couch, but they werent able to get it because the sale ended that day :( Anyways, so my mom wasnt there when they went to drop me off, I felt so bad because Miranda and francis had to go to dinner at her moms for thanksgiving and since my mom hadnt been there they were late! But i ended up going to chapters on the west-island and read Inuyasha!!!!! hehe i loved it!

then they came and picked me up and we went to another chapters downstairs, and we sat in the starbucks there for a while when this random guy came and sat at the table next to us, and he saw francis on his computer and asked him if he could charge his mp3 on his computer, and then asked if he could lay his bag on the chair next to miranda. Then after like 5 minutes or so he started talking to us about his personal life, i couldnt help but laugh at this random moment, i mean, how could you not? hehe. Anyways, so i got up and went to find a book, when i came back, we left.

We drove around downtown and it was hilarious because we saw a water fountain, and there was fire all on the inside going in a perfect circle around the fountain, we thought it was made like that and went to take pictures, but it went out. Then after a while of waiting for it to come back up, a fire truck showed up!! It was way too funny! Anyways, so that was my weekend last week.

This weekend i went to see the movie Quarentine, its was UNBELIEVABLY scary, i almost cried watching it!!!! Its about an exxageration of rabies and they are all trapped in the building because the government sealed them in so the desiese wouldnt spread... it was very scary, then after the movie me and tara were walking back to my house along churchill and these guys in a car opened the window and shouted something to us, but i dont know what. but they drove away so we were fine. Then today I stayed at my dads and rented gossip girl and white chicks, and watched that until i left for subway, then i went to taras for a bit and then i came home, and everyone was arguing.. so anyways, that was last weekend and this weekend, i am gonna rap this up now, byeee :)

Terrible :-/

Last night i was watching a movie with David(my bf) and after a while he had to go because his dad came down and was in kind of a bad mood.. So he left, and then i started to hear yelling and banging coming from upstairs where he lives, and it was him and his dad fighting, like 10 minutes later of fighting, David came downstairs, and he was crying.. His dad came down and told him to hand over the keys to his house and so he did. He called his mom last night and went up to get his stuff, he never came back down to my house but i think he went outside... I don't know if he is OK or not .. :( If he moves in with his mom he will live really far away, but i think his dad had been drinking last night and was just wasted, but its hard to tell with his dad. So i don't know, but i really hope hes okay.