How can you help, when they dont accept that help?
How can you sleep, when you know that they are crying?
How can you try, when they wont tell you whats wrong?
Where do you turn, When they dont want you to?
What do you do, if you see those marks of pain?
What can you tell them, if they never let you in?
What do you cry for, if they dont let you cry with them?
How can you be a friend, if they dont let you be?
How can you comfort them, if they tell you nothings wrong?
How can you tell someone, when they hide behind a mask?
How can you be happy, if you know that their not?
How can you live, after its too late?
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
Poem I wrote a long time agoo --The Wish
One day I found a penny, I made a little wish,
I walked with it a while, and tossed it in a fountain.
That night I saw a shooting star, I made a little wish,
I went to bed, and I dreamed that little wish.
Not long after it was my birthday, I made a little wish,
Upon my birthday candles, I watched them as they glowed,
Soon that came was christmas, I wrote santa a letter,
I wrote to him my little wish, that was all i wanted.
Few days pass, and I sit down by the fire,
Staring into its burning flames, I make a little wish.
Hoping this time, someone,somewhere would hear it,
Hoping that maybe this time it might come true.
One day I found a penny, I saw it glitter in the distance,
I started to walk towards it, to go and pick it up.
Ill try one last time, to make a wish, and hope it might come true,
I pick it up, make the wish, and turn around to you.
I walked with it a while, and tossed it in a fountain.
That night I saw a shooting star, I made a little wish,
I went to bed, and I dreamed that little wish.
Not long after it was my birthday, I made a little wish,
Upon my birthday candles, I watched them as they glowed,
Soon that came was christmas, I wrote santa a letter,
I wrote to him my little wish, that was all i wanted.
Few days pass, and I sit down by the fire,
Staring into its burning flames, I make a little wish.
Hoping this time, someone,somewhere would hear it,
Hoping that maybe this time it might come true.
One day I found a penny, I saw it glitter in the distance,
I started to walk towards it, to go and pick it up.
Ill try one last time, to make a wish, and hope it might come true,
I pick it up, make the wish, and turn around to you.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Joke
So your at a party, when you realize you have to fart.. You think, *the music is loud.. i dont think anyone will hear...* So you decide to fart to the beat of the music. Finally your finished farting, and you look around, everyone is staring at you.. Thats when you realize you have been listening to your ipod. hehehe i heard this on the readio this morning :P
Scared
In the past month (Since christmas vacation started) I have been staying up really late. I mean, that is normal during vacations. Then as vacation ended, I was still staying up later then i should. So i was tired in school, and sleeping in. I know at first it had just become a habit. Now i am realizing after 3 weeks after the holidays ended, that it is not the reason anymore. The reason I have been staying up lately, is because im scared. Not of some silly movie, or anything like that. I am scared of life. Scared of the future, and the responsiblities that lie ahead. I am scared of how i am doing in school, and how i will do in school in the future, and if i will be in school. And the only way I can keep the days away from me longer is if i stay up late. I dont want to have to sleep, it goes much too fast for me, I dont want it to go that fast, So i find that the longer i stay up, the longer i can make each day last, and keep the fears of each day away from me. I hate that im scared of life... I love life, but im just scared about what lies ahead, 1 year from now, 2 years from now, 3 years from now and so on. I wish that i could not sleep, so everything would seem so much longer, to be able to have one whole night in addition to the day. .. The only other way i ever escape from life is when i write, or read. When i write, my stories are never really something that could be truley real, So i find that when i write, i am so caught up and inside my story that i dont have time to worry about anything. I guess that is why none of my stories have endings, because i never let them end, i dont want there to be an end, So i can just write and write forever. Writing is like a drug to me. Some people stop worrying about life with drugs, and well i stop worrying with writing. Like when i read, i guess thats why i read so fast; i dont want to put the book down because i dont want to come back to reality.. I would rather live in a book, and stay there. Books always make things easier. heheh.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Who am I?
Who am I?
According to people who dont know me: I am a girl. A neighbour. A sad person. A happy person. A good person. A bad person. An ugly person. A beautiful person. A sister. A daughter. An outcast. Someone popular. A stupid person. A smart person. Someone who wont succeed. Someone who will succeed. Someone who might seem better then them. Someone who might seem worst then them. Someone who doesnt care. Someone who does care. Aa loving person. An uncaring person. An ungrateful person. A grateful person.
According to people who know me: I am a girl. A neighbour. I am a happy person, who has their ups and downs. I am a good person. A sister. A daughter. Not an outcast, but not popular. A smart person. Someone you might succeed. Someone the same as them. Someone who cares sometimes. A loving person.
According to myself: I am a girl. A friend. A teenager. A happy person who has sad moments. Someone who helps out. I am a good person. A sister to 2. A daughter to 2. Someone with only a few close friends. A pretty smart person. I am a person who can succeed if i try. Someone unique from everyone else. A person who cares when i want to care. A loving person.
To strangers.. You can be alot of things. You can be anything. In someone elses mind you can be the total opposite of what you actually are.
To your friends... You are only what you let them see. Only what you want them to think you are. Sometimes you act how you want to be, and sometimes your just yourself.
To yourself.. Well you are you. It is only within yourself that you can truely be your self. To be able to think anything without being judged.
I am me. Who are you?
According to people who dont know me: I am a girl. A neighbour. A sad person. A happy person. A good person. A bad person. An ugly person. A beautiful person. A sister. A daughter. An outcast. Someone popular. A stupid person. A smart person. Someone who wont succeed. Someone who will succeed. Someone who might seem better then them. Someone who might seem worst then them. Someone who doesnt care. Someone who does care. Aa loving person. An uncaring person. An ungrateful person. A grateful person.
According to people who know me: I am a girl. A neighbour. I am a happy person, who has their ups and downs. I am a good person. A sister. A daughter. Not an outcast, but not popular. A smart person. Someone you might succeed. Someone the same as them. Someone who cares sometimes. A loving person.
According to myself: I am a girl. A friend. A teenager. A happy person who has sad moments. Someone who helps out. I am a good person. A sister to 2. A daughter to 2. Someone with only a few close friends. A pretty smart person. I am a person who can succeed if i try. Someone unique from everyone else. A person who cares when i want to care. A loving person.
To strangers.. You can be alot of things. You can be anything. In someone elses mind you can be the total opposite of what you actually are.
To your friends... You are only what you let them see. Only what you want them to think you are. Sometimes you act how you want to be, and sometimes your just yourself.
To yourself.. Well you are you. It is only within yourself that you can truely be your self. To be able to think anything without being judged.
I am me. Who are you?
My late new years resolutions:
I should have written these down on new years. .. . .But anywayss. :P
1) To do better in school (this would involve going ALOT more often, lol)
2) To try and be a better person (ex; Use no products that are harmful to environment, instead of walking past litter, if not unexeptionally gross, then pick it up, do volunteer work, etc..)
3) To try and help out friends more with stuff.
4) To clean my locker (starting to get messy, haha)
5) To have better organization.
6) To eat healthier (no chips,pepsie,popcorn or bubblegum, etc..)
7) To learn more about history.
8) To remember to call people back when I say I will (or when asked to)
9) To not be too grumpy (only because grumpiness is contagious, if someone sees it, it WILL be passed on!!)
10) To actually complete these resolutions!
1) To do better in school (this would involve going ALOT more often, lol)
2) To try and be a better person (ex; Use no products that are harmful to environment, instead of walking past litter, if not unexeptionally gross, then pick it up, do volunteer work, etc..)
3) To try and help out friends more with stuff.
4) To clean my locker (starting to get messy, haha)
5) To have better organization.
6) To eat healthier (no chips,pepsie,popcorn or bubblegum, etc..)
7) To learn more about history.
8) To remember to call people back when I say I will (or when asked to)
9) To not be too grumpy (only because grumpiness is contagious, if someone sees it, it WILL be passed on!!)
10) To actually complete these resolutions!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Graduation day song (I wrote this quicky, sorry if something makes no sense) :P
Its time to grow, Time to move on.
Move to the next, chapter of our lives.
Time to leave highschool, and start living.
We might or might not, grow apart, but well never be entirely gone.
I will always be in your heart, as you will be in mine.
There will be times, i will remember your face,
But i gotta be strong, gotta move along,
I will miss you all, but there will be a time...
It graduation day, Were moving on,Going strong
Were not really saying goodbye,
for we will meet again, some day,
Its graduation day, Please dont cry,
for were not over with yet,
For we will meet again some day,
It graduation day.
Dont forget me please, or the times we spent together,
The times we laughed; the times we cried,
Will never leave my mind..
Were gonna be friends forever.
I love everyone here, today,
All of my friends, I will miss you all
But i promise you, yeah i promise you now,
Listen to what i gotta say...
Its graduation day,were moving on,going strong,
Were not really saying goodbye,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day, please dont cry,
Were not over with yet,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day.
Dont ever be sad about it,
Just think of the, happy times we shared together,
All the smiles and hopes and dreams we had,
But now were free, the candles lit,
It might be, a while, not much too long,
But absense makes the heart grow stronger,
So remember me, dont let me go.
When your sad, just remember this song,
Its graduation day,Were moving on,going strong,
Were not really saying goodbye,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day, please dont cry,
Were not over with yet,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day.
Move to the next, chapter of our lives.
Time to leave highschool, and start living.
We might or might not, grow apart, but well never be entirely gone.
I will always be in your heart, as you will be in mine.
There will be times, i will remember your face,
But i gotta be strong, gotta move along,
I will miss you all, but there will be a time...
It graduation day, Were moving on,Going strong
Were not really saying goodbye,
for we will meet again, some day,
Its graduation day, Please dont cry,
for were not over with yet,
For we will meet again some day,
It graduation day.
Dont forget me please, or the times we spent together,
The times we laughed; the times we cried,
Will never leave my mind..
Were gonna be friends forever.
I love everyone here, today,
All of my friends, I will miss you all
But i promise you, yeah i promise you now,
Listen to what i gotta say...
Its graduation day,were moving on,going strong,
Were not really saying goodbye,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day, please dont cry,
Were not over with yet,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day.
Dont ever be sad about it,
Just think of the, happy times we shared together,
All the smiles and hopes and dreams we had,
But now were free, the candles lit,
It might be, a while, not much too long,
But absense makes the heart grow stronger,
So remember me, dont let me go.
When your sad, just remember this song,
Its graduation day,Were moving on,going strong,
Were not really saying goodbye,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day, please dont cry,
Were not over with yet,
For we will meet again someday,
Its graduation day.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Lifes little lessons
I have recently realized that life has alot of messages. When you fall and hurt yourself, you learn that you shouldnt do stupid things like putting a cardboard box on a skateboard and trying to ride inside the box. Or when you catch the stove on fire, You learn that you shouldnt try making scrambled eggs at age 7 without the help of an adult, for the first time. Or when you get called on infront of the whole class to answer a problem that you cant answer, you learn that you shouldnt set aside your homework for later and never end up doing it. Or when you get dumped for the first time, you learn that you shouldnt get attatched so quickly. Or when you make bigger mistakes; When you get grounded, you learn that you must never ever yell at you mother. Or when you get detention, you learn you shouldnt have talked back to the teacher. Or when you get ratted out by someone, you learn that you shouldnt ever gossip unreal things about your closest friend just to be cool. Or even bigger mistakes then that. When you get dumped for a true reason, you learn that you should not have cheated. Or when you cry yourself to sleep one night, you learn that you shouldnt have excluded your family, or friends from your life for any reason. Or when you yell out to heaven, you learn that you have made mistakes, and yo have learned from these mistakes. But you will always be forgiven. Life is a lesson filled with alot more lessons. You make mistakes, you learn, and sometimes you dont, but you do one day. And that is why you cant forget that you will always be forgiven.
Friday, January 16, 2009
My future car :)
This is a picture of a silver volvo c30 2009.. Yes, it is the car from twilight, but edward is not the only reason i am in love with this car.. Its fast, pretty, safe, and holds really good on the road(you will be able to see what i mean if you watch twilight, that part where he comes driving out of nowhere, and he does this awesome turn.. well yeah) Anyways, its not as expensive as everyone told me it would be, it is only $29,410.00.. And everyone was telling me it was crazy expensive.. but its not.. so ha :P Anyways, heres a picture... its beautifull .. mhm. :) I am sooo buying it in 3 years from now, or 6 years when i have the money.. haha.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Twiilligghtt Obsseessioon!!
Im finished every twilight book.. How that thought makes me oddly depressed.. haha, That book is the type of book, that just draws you in, a book that almost anyone can love. The writing is AMAZING, and the charactors are as well.. The movie is good, but very straight-forward... They sped through everything.. The actors did not so well in the movie, (Kristen Stewart, and Robert Pattinson) Although I am in love with Robert/Edward, I have to admit his acting was not so good in the movie. He did better in Harry Potter. The reason for this, though, is because Robert Pattinson fell head over heels for Kristen Stewart, but since Kristen has a boyfriend, he got rejected, therefore, making the movie have tension and awkard..ism. haha. Hopefully the seconde one is better. Since reading these books, I have been totally inspired to write like Stephanie Meyer, I have always loved writing, But now I want to write a book, that is at least almost as good as her books. There is another book, it is the first book all over again.. but (all girls reading, get ready to scream) It is all, through EDWARDS view, I want so much to read it, but i know i cant, because Stephanie Meyer decided NOT to publish it, because she is very upset about it being leaked all over the internet.. It stops abrubtly, meaning, it never finishes!!!.. lol. Anyways, i might read it, but i will have to do some thinking...
The Solar Eclispe
I have never actually seen on for myself before, But tonight i was looking up solar eclipse, lunar eclipse, Halleyès comet.. etc.. And i saw one picture of an eclispe.. It was the solar eclipse of 1984, It was So beautiful, It makes me wish i could have seen it, been alive at the time to witness something so beautiful. Anyways, here is the picture of it : Can you believe it? The sun covering the moon... im just so intrigues by it..
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Another convo [Fake argument]
6:49 PM me: khaa
asnwer me
stop exiting me
Urgggg
i will keep it up
6:50 PM it will get annoying
| 8 minutes |
6:58 PM shelbiejost: ùppléè;
6:59 PM me: mhmm
haha
shelbiejost: im watchin sexy adam sùndler
sandler
me: oh yes
7:00 PM hes not tht hot
not as hot as BATMAN
but i actually did like batman
shelbiejost: lol climbin walls and shit
me: yeah, lol
he flies
tho
same basic thing
7:01 PM shelbiejost: he got bit by a bat
me: no, he inherrited it
shelbiejost: he has webbed toes
me: he doesnt actually fly
he is just strong
and i am in love with him
shelbiejost: he can jump
me: but i cant cheat on my santa baby
shelbiejost: spider man can climb celings
me: MY edward
shelbiejost: like edward
me: mhmm
7:02 PM hah
shelbiejost: superman has it all
except thee ooks
me: but hes a douche bag
i dun like him
hes yucky
7:04 PM shelbiejost: ok well are you watchin ur
muvie
moo-vee
move e
muvee
7:08 PM ya w2ell *-3j u 2
me: huh?
Mine and shelbies funny convo[Was hyper]
hi...im percilla and ive been watching u from afar and i noticed u got the shit burger at mcdonalds the other day and i thought it was a good choice..i got 3 big mac combos and 2 dbl cheeseburgers..(hi my name is bobby)thats my dad he just wants to let you know that his name is bobby...anyways so u have buns of steel...that must be from the shit burgers...ive noticed uve been workin out,ur so masculin,its quite attractive actually(my name is bobby,bobby,bobby)yea thats bobby he just wants to let you know his name is bobby
8:40 PM me: g,g,g,g,g, i have a ss,stuttering pproblem, g, unit, Heyah! Im wif fiffy
8:42 PM shelbiejost: hi my name is lil jon yeeaaa we smokin the green yeeeaaa ridin aaround in da mercedies yeeeaaa gee gee geee geee gee ungee gee unit.thats right lil jja ja jaa
jon
| 7 minutes |
8:50 PM me: The boogymans comin.. He uhm, just wanted me to tell you, that.. he finds you very attractive.. He would like to do some,, innapropriate stuff with you, he wants to go biigity bang boop bop bang, in your room under the bed, he said he might be, uhm, a little shy tho, cuz it's the first time hes actually asking first, he figured its probably time to stop being a, a, peeping tom and start doin it the right way... neways, he says that the dog didnt satisfy him, and the girl he pulled under the bed rejected him, hes sad now. he does love you. he wants you shelbie. D,dont be scared, he doesnt want to hurt you, he.would.like.to."have.fun".with.you. hah. he just wanted me to let you know.
8:51 PM He's coming :->
I like little boys
oops too much info
shelbiejost: loll i gatta goo
me: i know
| 54 minutes |
9:50 PM shelbiejost: open your hand books...turn to page 49.....if you cant turn to page 49....turn to page seven 7 times........if i had the wings of a pork chop up to the woods i would fly id fly...and if i had the legs of a froggy up the the sky i would hopid hop .....listen no matter what dont give in stick by me no matter what she says about the money
9:51 PM me: yeahh i know...
Come read my book while i write it ? :)
shelbiejost: hold on cause im talken to someone VERY important
me: whose that?
9:52 PM shelbiejost: canttell u
its a secret
but the person is ignorin mee
:ÀÀ(
me: tell me ! Dont make me come over there!
shelbiejost: im trynna talk to aaron but he aint talken back too mee
me: :[
9:53 PM my aaron?
or sxy aaron?
Shelbie poo?
9:54 PM shelbiejost: listen here candice poopp...its ur aaron but he hates me he is ignorin me cause he dont love ,e
me
10:56 PM shelbiejost: apples
me: n bananas
shelbiejost: n cheeseccake
me: cant forget the whipping cream
shelbiejost: whipped
10:57 PM oops i inflatuted on ur legg
me: wit a cherry
oh gosh
grab a marguretta
shelbiejost: oopsie dasies
me: marjuanna cigarette
10:58 PM shelbiejost: lolli lolli lollipop
| 58 minutes |
11:56 PM me: kay, well im gonna go to sleep now, i;ve got the boogyman waitin for me, since SOMEONE didnt live up to his expectations >:[ lol
11:57 PM shelbiejost: lol
ok im commin
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