Free

Im feeling very happy at school lately. Instead of feeling embarrassed or ashamed of every single thing i do, I dont worry about it anymore. I say the wrong thing, I laugh it off.. If someone says something mean to me, or treats me like im a push-over, I speak up, and god, does it feel good. I feel as if i am stepping out from behind the eerie shadows that held me prisioner for so long. It feels as if i can finally be myself... at school. I dont know how, or what it is that made me feel this way, but im so happy that i do feel this way. Im talking more to everyone, and my cheeks dont burn up everytime the teacher calls on me. I feel... new. I cant really explain the feeling. But after being so shy for so long (though i am still shy,im not overly,crazy shy) It feels great to finally be able to act like and idiot in the school halls, and not worry about what people are thinking. I dont know how else to explain it, But I feel so much better, I feel lighter, and less... Nervous.. I no longer feel the heavy pull of nervousness in my stomache that seemed like a magnetic force, when i walk into school. Im happy. A part of me thinks that, that could be some of the reasons for not wanting to go to school lately; My shyness, and the over-dramatic affect it had on me. But im free now. Finally free. :)