Upset with a former best friend.

I have felt betrayed before, and theres no doubt that i feel betrayed now; only worst.. We've known each other forever, since we were 3.. almost 11 years now. We've been through everything together, family problems, boyfriend troubles, not fitting in.. everything. Best friends, thats what we're suppose to be. It started in grade 6, the first year that she would be in my school since coming back from toronto. I told her about everyone i knew, the people i liked, who i didnt like. We did everything together for about the first week, when she became friends with one person i didnt like. The one person who was mean, and rude, and said things bad things about everyone including her two best friends who she lost because of it. Suddenly, I was hanging out with her too. I was fine with everything though, at first. My best friend was still hanging out with me, so i was fine.

But gradually, she hung out less with me, shegot a boyfriend, she was best friends with the popular girl and i was nothing. Of course I had my other friends, but it wasnt the same. She had ALL of her new friends' Names connected to her name on her binders, and not mine. She called them her best friends, and occasionally, she would call me her best friend. It sucked.

But then high school came. All of her other friends went to different schools, and i didnt. So she clung to me everyday until once again she became friends with the popular group, and again i was cast aside like an old toy replaced with new ones. I would call her, and she'd be busy, her attitude changed, she wasnt the same, happy, fun person i was friends with. She had other ideas of 'fun'. That was drinking,going to big parties, and hanging with anyone cool; of course this did not include me. At school, she'd go off with her cool friends, and leave me alone. I made better friends though, friends who actually cared about me.. of course i couldnt let my best friend slip away from me, we'd known eachother too long. So i still called her, I still hung out with her quietly, while she talked to her other friends, ignoring me altogether. She would only call me when everyone else had something to do, I was her last hopeless choice.

Then theres this year, its worst. She doesnt call me anymore, so i dont call her. We talk sometimes on msn, and when we do, she says how much she misses me and that we should hang out soon. SO I agree to hang out, only to be disappointed again. If i see her in the mall while shes with her other friends, she ignores me. A quick, barely noticable smile and off she goes. Now, shes always out drinking, hanging out with her new friends, trying drugs,.. being 'cool'. But I'm done with her, no matter how long i've known her, she's not a true friend, not a person worth having as a friend. I know where this path is taking her. God knows that I tried.. Of course I feel bad ditching her while shes on this path, but i've told her she shouldnt do it, shes seen what its done to people, what alchohal did my mom's ex, and what drugs did to my brother at first. But she doesnt listen, she would rather be cool, and popular, then healthy... But at least I can say that I tried to be a friend.