Why would you judge me if Im different ?

Who am I to judge ?
Who are you to think bad ?
Who is anyone to be mean ?

Here's the thing,

People are always so critical. So fast to judge other's when really, they shouldn't even care. Unless the person their judging is going to harm them is any way, what their doing, or what their wearing, or how they act, has absolutly no effect on them. So why would they judge? I think it's ridiculous. I mean, I'm not saying IM perfect, Of course I judge people. However, I DO think about it. I think about how I would feel if i were that person being laughed at, or being called a name, or just being critisized harshly. Judging inside of your head should be the only place you judge anyone. Because if any little part of your judgment is leaked out from beyond the tiny walls of your head, it spreads. It spreads like a deadly, and excruciatingly painful poison. I am not being over-dramatic either. Hear me out.

Everyone has had that day, where, you dont, and WONT go in public because of how you look, or if you cant find the right clothes. Right? Why is that? doesn't it suck, too? To feel as though your ugly, and gross, and that if you are seen in that condition that everyone will laugh at you? well that, that is called judging. Some people judge to make them feel better about themselves. Others do to fit in. andthen there are just those people who do it because others humiliation, is just amusing to them. But I dont get it, obviously these people are those who lack both sympathy, and empathy. Why not take a second, and put yourself in their shoes. IF it were you, who was being laughed at, and tteased by the people who you have to go to school with or the people who you have to see. But, even worst then getting teased by someone you know, is getting teased by a complete stranger. Who are they to judge? They dont know you, they dont knnow your backround, or where youve been. They know not a thing about you. And what makes THEM any better then you?

Anyways,

What made me write this is just, that I was at the bus station today, and theres a guy who goes there quite often, and im not saying thisa to be mean, but he is mentally handicap. When he is there, he acts strange, he talks different, and today, he was singing loudly to himself. There were two girls in the same area as me, and when they saw him, they looked at eachother and laughed, and began talking about him. How is that fair? Their mocking someone else's mental stability. Its a problem that he could not control, that he could not have any power over what so ever. He is a poor person doomed, and imprisoned to a life sentence of abnormality, and sadness. He will never be able to have a normal life, like those two girls DO have the privillege of having. Something he doesnt. And their LAUGHING about it. Of course, i thought it was weird when I first saw it, he's different. someone not normal. Those were my first thoughts, but then as i observed closer, its not HIS fault, So why should I laugh at something that was totally beyond his control.If anything, we should cry on his behalf, Cry that he cant have a normal life.

Now, i realize I AM being a little hypocritical. Just for the fact that franky showed me this g.i joe dubbed show, where they make fun of a mentally handicapped person, and i laugh at it. I shouldnt, but I do. Most people find it funny because of the difference of speech, because of the way that they cant say things the same we can, or say a proper sentence. So all of a sudden, because it isnt real, its okay. But really, its not. It IS real, its something that real people are born with and cannot do anything about. It's as real as the man i seen at the bus station today. And its a sad, sad thing. Imiagine a life, where you couldnt make any friends because your different, and everyone finds you weird. Imagine a life in which you can't go outside without being judged in some way. It would be hard. Friendless,hopeless,and lifeless.

Anyways, just think about it.
Its really sad.
Dont judge, because its something minor, that can lead t something big.

And by that, i mean death. suicide. People without anyone to run to, sometimes HAVE no other alternative. So pleaasseee be a friend to a person who has none.

Thankkkk you!!!!!

The Good And The Bad.

Good Morning.

I have failed to write everyday.
:(

I want to write everyday, but for some reason, blogging slips my mind. I guess it could be because i have alot on my mind. Not only bad things, but good things too.[ha,no duh candice,if its not only'bad' things, obviously its good things] Anyways, lets start with the good things: I have writing on my mind. Doing something fun, getting a job, or something. Anything to do with writing. My life is pretty much about writing, if I can't write, I get upset. Yet if im upset, I write. If I am happy, I write, If I have ANYTHING on my mind, I write. I write on the bus, in the car, at home, and[shhhh!] in school, in class. and no, not just in english class. I hate not being able to write, but that's okay when I can't, because it really triggers my emotions and then I have something to write about. more good things on my mind: I might be going to Toronto Friday! :) I really hope I can go. Also, good things: I am doing pretty good in summer school! and thats all for the good things.

Now on to the bad things: I keep thinking about Augest. Soooo much to do, and I don't even want to do half of these things. There is going back to the hospital for another appointment, and if my burn is not any better, I have to get plastic surgery, to be honest, i'm really considering skpping that appointment. There is also going to Heritage to sign up for september. I want to do that, its just, IM SICK OF GOING TO PLACES THAT ARE IMPORTANT!!!! argh. anyways, theres alot more on my mind, but I have to start getting ready for school. IM STRESSED! ARGH!

random

and just so everyone knows..
Theres no use in crying,
because it changes nothing.
:(

A broken heart,
A waiting soul,
Wanting to leave the empty room.

Theres no one there,
But still, she is.
Her aura's beginning to fade.

A single tear,
wiped away,
because she knows theres no use.

A small escape,
Impossible to reach,
But still, she wont stop trying.

Her goal is set,
She wont forget,
She'll do what it takes to achieve it.

One life,
One chance,
She'll grab it, when in arms reach.

One light,
one switch,
She'll flip it as soon as she can.

For now though,
The light is off,
But one day she will turn it on.

What is pain?

Pain is the throbbing of your aching heart,
The feeling of being forgotten,
pain is the loss of feeling cared for,
pain is the loneliness of an empty night.

Pain is the last alternative when nothing else works,
the sadness of a dying rose,
pain is the helpess cry of a child,
in the night when 'no one's home.

Pain is the point of no return,
when your holding your own chest to stay together,
pain is the tear from the eyes of god,
it's the fear of no longer being.

Pain is the fading of your once endless hope,
and the revelation of your anger,
pain is when you cry yourself to sleep,
holding the pillow to your heart.

Pain is the point when your holding your head down to your body,
the loudness of your pulse inside your ears,
the tick and tock from the grandfather clock of fate,
pain is the torture of your soul.

Pain is the fiery gate of hell,
the light turned off so your blinded,
pain is the bitter after taste,
of something you now regret.

Pain is the the happy memories that no longer live,
the tearing and rippng of something that's gone,
it's the very second that your heart stops beating.

Not sure what to write.

I don't know if I'll get into the moment when writing this entry, but i'll try to. This is usually what I do when I can't think of anything to write, I just write anything and see if something comes to me in the process. So, I am quite capable of typing with these nails.. though I always mess up, hmm,.. then i guess thats considered to be UNcapable... oh, whatever. Anyways, I start summer school tomorrow... I went from thinking it lasts one week, to two weeks, and find out it lasts three weeks. THREE WEEKS! of pure torture [yes, i consider math torture, theres a reason I'm going to summer school,you know] ugh, nothing more is coming to me...

Well, I guess this will have to be a short entry.
I'm just so eager to write something amazing,
and it's getting in the way of writing just a regular entry.

Anywayssss......

:)

Unknown

A loving heart, to care for you,
was all you ever asked for.
So why didn't you ever get it?
Why not, the one thing you ask of anyone?

Remembrance of a dead and gone soul,
Will never be known to the world.
For this pure-hearted soul was forgotten.
Disapeared with the wind and the waves.
If only, someone had known.

You tried to be brave, but it failed.
You tried to hold on, but let go.
A bruise in the shape of 4 fingers,
But hidden so no one could see.

A baby forced to be older,
A child locked in a room.
Hidden and banned from humanity,
Forever is gone from the world.

Too late to save,
Too far to grab,
A gravestone without engravements.
A gravestons without flowers.

A wounded soul, alone in the world,
who had not a person to run to.
Cold as ice, yet soft as silk,
Forever forgotten, unknown.

Car Fetish

Okay, so for the past several months, I've had this obsession over cars. Yeah, i know, cars. But anyways, I know ALOT of them. Well, you know, all the neighborhood cars; And more. It's actually a fun hobby. I'll write down the ones i can think of at the moment that i like and dislike.

LIKE:

1)Volvo (obviously my #1)
2)Mercedes(smart car, for environmental reasons)
3)Nissan(350z)
4)Mitsubishi(eclipse mostly)
5)BMW
6)Maybach
7)Chrysler
8)Saab
9)Porsche(duh) =]
10)Lamborghini (any,their all awesome)
11)Corvette
12)Lexus
13)Audi
14)Hyundai
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DISLIKE:

1)Chevy's (I know, I know, reliable! but their ugly..)
2)Scion
3)Toyota(THEIR FREAKING EVERYWHERE)
4)Nissan(I know i said i like nissan,but only the 350z/&& altima)
5)Ford(again,reliable,but not so pretty.)
6)Kia(their OKAY)
7)Lancia
8)Pontiac

I know there are alot of other cars, but I can't think of them off the top of my head.. So for now, those are my likes and dislikes. =]

Just something to think about.

Isn't it amazing how time just seems to sneak up on you, and then pass you by so quickly? Isn't it frustrating? How while you're there trying to live your life, the time just flies? Especially when you let your guard down, only for a second, somehow you've aged like 100 years ? How quickly this time goes. It's like a pick or choose situation.. Either, you don't live life to the fullest, which would be boring, and time then seems alot slower.. OR DO live life to the fullest, but then let time pass you by as fast as it can. For some reason, this year went by without me even seeing it. To me, this whole year didn't even happen. Now imagine that in the eyes of a dog? I know what your thinking.. "where in the world are you going with this" ? Well, Miranda's dog will be getting put down soon, because he's really old now, and, imagine how greedy we are to be saying 100 years isn't long! what the hell!? That's much too soon for me!! but look at a dog, they don't get, what? more then 20 years to live. that is not even equivalent to half the amount of time that we live. So this is also why i dont understand how people can be angry at eachother, or hold grudges, or just be mean for their own satisfaction. Why not make the best of it? the way a dog does ? Dogs are INCREDIBLY loyal,mellow,care-free, and can wind up being your best friend. There is only one way that an animal can become your best friend, and that is by being happy and friendly and, well, just by being there. So why is it that people cant do this? It isn't so complicated. I mean, why not make the best of 100 years? Why kill the environment? or why call a person down to the dirt? from the simplest thing as to just call someone a name, to the extreme thing as to murder. Why? Just do what you can as a person, to better yourself. To not hurt others, or to just be a good person. Care,love,be peaceful and loyal the way a dog is. Because they seem to enjoy life stress-free, but i haven't seen one person who doesn't go through an era of stress, or depression.. think about it.

--candice

BAD LUCK!!

I am currently in toronto :) I am leaving 'sigh' tomorrow though. I think after years of stepping on the cracks in the sidewalks, that my bad luck is finally catching up with me. Why? okay, well it all started the weekend before school finished... I got my hair bleached, and it burned my scalp, it hurt for two days, and then i was like "okay, everything should be fine now" also that week, i find out that the guy i like who i thought said yes to going out with me, actually said no. so i go to toronto the enxt weekend, and franky sees my burn and said it was really bad.. Then that week I stub my toe and sprain it, it turns purple. I cant walk normally for like 2 days. THEN when i go home, I find out i need to be hospitalized for the burn. So i go to the hospital, get it looked at, sit in the hospital for 4 hours, to find out i might need plastic surgery on my head in order for it to heal properly, thank god it wasnt THAT bad. however, i was told to take anti biotics that make me sick, and make everything taste funny. And to put cream on my head.. and i have to go back home tomorrow, because i have ANOTHER appointment at the hospital on wednesday. Now next monday i start summer school, for MATH, my WORST subject, AND i have to wait 3 more months for twilight's sequel of new moon to come out. now try telling me thats not bad luck?

Anyways, just thought i would write something, its been a while...