Depressedish.

So depression.

It sucks.

This year has been the worst for me, nothing too tooooo bad. i guess. But like, i'm positive that 2009 hates me. I mean, it started in june, everyone was telling me i should go back to my natural hair color[i had dyed it black, and my natural was red] and then i begin missing it too, so i go to get it bleached, and of course, it burns my scalp. THEN, i go to toronto thinking whatever, it should be fine, and it just gets worst. Then my hair gets all knotted[were still in june,here people, now its augest and my hair is STILL knotted,] AND i stub my toe, and let me tell you, it must have been one hell of a bang, because here i am 3 months later and the toe is still affected. I've been to the hospital like 5 times in the past 2 months BECAUSE of the burn, and only the past 2 times has it been GOOD news. ish. ALSO, this morning i get a shower and SOMEHOW, my neck moves in some way that now i have a kink in my neck and it hurts like hell. I can't freaking move it left, right, or even look up. to top it all off, I HAVE to be the most self concious person in the world. and having bad, knotted hair, and knowing that i might have to cut it off, so does not help.

I'm obviously not depressed, depressed. not the bad kind of depressed. I am just vaguely depressed, but it sucks. Nothing about this year is good, except for the trips to toronto. but thats about it.

now, If you'll excuse me... I have to go cry in a corner. [im being sarcastic]