Okay, im eating a nugget at the moment... Anyways, I was thinking of changing school's.. I can't get up in the morning, it's just not my thing.. So I was thinking of going to a school where the time varies, and the one im thinking of is only like a 20 minute walk from my house. Or i could just take the bus and i'd be there in 5 minutes. So it's a pretty good option. Im also starting to doubt myself. Im losing confidence in my writing, which to me, is worst than being stabbed. Writing is my life, and for the past 6 years, always has been. It's something where, I can take all of my feelings, weather they be anger,sadness,happiness,love,etc.. and turn it into a story.. and the best part is that no one could judge it... because to everyone else, it would be fictional, and entertaining. And another reason why I can't live without writing is that it's my drug. Im addicted. When people turn to alchohal, or E, or weed even, it makes them feel better, and for me, writing makes me feel better.. without all the trouble of hang over's and over doses! So, obviously, I'm passionate about my writing,, if I didn't write, i wouldnt know what to do with myself. I'd feel naked, and alone. Because when I write, every single piece of my feelings go into what i'm writing, it's everything I can't say, or wont say on a piece of paper, disguised by fiction. And when it's done, it's mine. People can read it, they can like it, they can hate it, but no one can take credit for it. It's mine, and people can read it, completely clueless as to what the actual meaning is behind it, or the real inspiration.. but it's like venting without judgement. So I really can't live without it... But seeing as im losing faith in myself.. I don;t know what to do, or how to deal with it, who am I to talk to seeing as my writing is starting to slip away? I have people to talk to, but honestly, it's not the same.
Anyways, that's my blog for today :)
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