Late Night Random

Im a useless stone.

Don't ask why I chose the word stone. I guess because that too, is useless.
Anyways. Honestly, I dont know what to do. I have no will-power, which prevents me from having the will to have a will-power because i have none to start with. No, im not trying to be funny. I think my voice has permanently gone monotone. Hey, at least I'm not cutting myself like some other idiots do when their sad and stupid. Nope, i'm just moping. Maybe not even that much. I kinda want to throw something, but I won't because I know it wont change how I feel. And besides, I don't think im angry. My foot's asleep. As i should be. At least something thats part of me knows what its doing. The clock is ticking right now, usually its sound soothes me, but tonight its just pissing me off. Its just ike tick, tick,tick, tick, tick, endlessly. Just shut up already, who cares about the time? I'll sleep after this though, Not like I have anything better to do. besides read. But my eyes are too heavy. Don't take that as a sign that I'll fall asleep when I go lie down, it'll take a while. Because as soon as I lay down my eyes will be light again, and thoughts will pop out of nowhere and voila, i lay awake listening to the stupid, agitating sound of the clock ticking off another second, every second, of my life. Hey, that's a good line I just wrote, If I were writing still, I'd use it in a story. I better go to school tomorrow. I'll like, kick myself if I dont. [For you francis lol.. but yeah, so that's me trying to make myself have will-power. I'll try. My alarm is set and i am promising that i'll try. I promise to try. I won't promise you i'll go because I hate breaking promises, and I am not sure if i'll be able to keep that one] I kind of just want to sit here and stare at the computer screen, but I know I can't. Sleep. Sleep is good. If i ever did sleep. I think I gained weight too. Thats embarrassing to write. But I dont care. Anyways, I suppose I should go lay down and listen to the clock now. Goodnight. Good morning, whatever you want to call it. I just mean to say bye,