I dont even know .. ?

Can I have a chance ?
A will ?
A clarified thought process ?
Anything ?

Sometimes it's too hard to try and change the way I think, or the way I look at things.. Part of me wants to change the way things are, and part of me doesn't. Well, most of me doesn't want to change anything at all... Its just that reality ruins everything.. I dont even know what to write now. I just wanted to write.. something. Anyways.. If i think of something else I will write it...